Nothing To Lose

8 A.M. Monday morning, after 3 alarms finish their cycle of obnoxious ringing, I reluctantly get out of bed so I don't miss my first period "Form and Analysis" class. You see, it's important that I have perfect attendance in that class so I can drop my lowest quiz grade. That might play an important role in my passing of that class, even though we only have to score a D.

I'm the last one in the room writing down the few chords of music I can manage to process in my brain. Time is up before I can finish the test that, the test we started last class period. Off to conducting class.

Hoping I can run well in class variance, I was anxious to know if we had a quiz this morning. I had no clue what so ever as I had skipped this particular class last Friday. I didn't skip because it was my birthday, I skipped so I can practice for my violin lesson. You see as a music student, I have to prioritize which music class is more important, what teacher I want to disappoint the least. I won a 60/40 and we didn't have a test, rather we were being assigned a composer in which we have to write a presentation on. It's due March 11th, but I know it's fate that it'l be written a few hours before class.

Birthdays, although just a number, have always served as a great time for introspective thought on my life. In this window of 3 hours that just past by, I really couldn't help by realize how fortunate I am to be a poker player. My conducting professor was doing a fantastic job today of scaring us today. Fact after statistic was thrown out on how ridiculously tough it is to attain a job as a music teacher, and how he is recommitting himself to helping us. Pondering the current job market as an educator, I don't think I could convince myself any further: The variance in being apart of a system in which we have no control over, will always be far more great than that of poker. Yes, there is variance in the game, but I am starting to realize more and more how I think it's an excuse. Ever since I decided to play poker professionally, three months have not passed in which I've looked back and thought to myself "wow, I knew nothing compared to what I know now".

Micro and Macro evolution occurs within all facets of life. Is it possible, that because a poker players separates themselves from the world so much, that he or she misses out on this rather elementary connection? In nature, being the fittest, self-aware, and humble, are what makes creatures live another day. As poker players, we are no different.

"Determine never to be idle. No person will have occasion to complain of the want of time who never loses any. It is wonderful how much may be done if we are always doing"

-Thomas Jefferson




Nothing to lose
if we
are wise
we're not
expecting rainbow
colored skies
not right away

both you and I
have seen what time can do
we only have ourselves
if we built dreams that don't come true



I've contemplated whether to go on with updates or just let the above stand alone. Maybe take a break from reading and let what was said linger in your mind for a bit.


My only guess for the accidental delay in posts is my lack of sleep. I may have said it before, but I guarantee you it is more true now than before. At this point in my life, this is the least amount of sleep I have ever seen. After reading some of the meh posts I have made on this blog, I concluded that I just hate writing on little sleep. My week staggers of 8 and 9 AM music classes. You may hear me talking about fold equity, villains, and merging ranges in some of my vids. But at 7AM, when i'm guessing most of you all have hardly gone to bed, i'm getting up to teach 5th graders "oh so fun" children songs. My week is littered with nights of 3-5 hours of sleep. I've tried switching to a bi-phasic sleeping patter, but finding time for the nap in the afternoon is tough enough as is.

My own poker game is going great for the most part. I've taken down a few tournaments across random sites and am around 5k this month before staking and coaching. Seeing as I was insane busy these past few weeks with a concert, 3 family birthdays including my own, I really haven't played that much. I think i'll be refocusing my brain on cash games as I'm sure that is the only thing i'll have time for leading up to spring break. Coaching is going the best it ever has. I'm having more and more sessions where I feel like Morpheus unplugging Neo from the Matrix. Having those breakthrough sessions where you can hear a students brain turning across a skype call is what makes it worth it.

Vegas baby, that time is getting close. I'm going to get a bit ahead of myself here and post the house I'm really hoping me and my crew get. I hear back from the owner tomorrow to see if we can get it for the whole month of June.









Needless to say I'm pretty stoked about the series this year. So many people I still haven't met yet and so much grinding to be done. My former cash game coach said my game was definitely good enough for 5/10 live so I'm hoping i'll be able to spot some nice 10/20 games. Aside from a few events and possible cash spew, i'll probably focusing on my online game a lot getting ready for 2012. That's just tentatively speaking though. I'm going to be speaking with some graphic designers in the next week or two to get some SNGReasons hoodies ready for the series.

Good luck in March everyone and thanks for reading,

-Reasons